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Today I learned that not everyone knows love, you about it but you dont know it.
Or what,who or how it came to pass that there was love.

Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love 1 John 4;8

So now you know God is love and love is God.

It wasn't moss or monkeys okay!

I know this lovely person who reminded me of who I used to be and feel like.
I was a hurting person, who was emotionally abused, Bullied,Parents split, I was suicidal and the hole dug even deeper as i went more recluse.
I was a party person thinking oh great a way out!, but oh no its another trap!.

It got me thinking and crying on how much, I "wasn't loved" or how "worthless I am".
But that's not the case at all!John 3:16 For He so Loved the world he gave his ONLY Son to it

I never realised this for a while that there was a perfect love and that I am the apple to someones eye,That I had a Dad!
That's what I wanted most and I seeked for it everywhere and it lead me to the wrong paths a lot of the time.I WANTED TO FEEL LOVED.( If this was the spot light moment with choirs of angels sings 'ahhhhh!' this was going to be moment of slight revelation!)

All the emotional abuse i got and some physical too had twisted my thought pattern and what little truth i knew.I was raised Catholic and no matter how many hail Mary's i would say I felt no more loved then I did before I said them,In fact I began to FEAR God!

1 John 4:18
Such love has no fear,because perfect love expels all fear.if we are afraid,it is for fear of punishment and this shows we have not fully experienced his perfect love.

I didn't know LOVE! and that means I didn't know GOD!. I didn't know MY DAD!
(this was the case anyways he was a legger{and I didn't know my divine one})

I didn't know my maker! who made me in the likeness of him! and formed me in the depts of the earth and watched as his lovely Vicky...achem..Victoria baked in her ma's oven!

Then my mate lovely Xana Cuadra showed me this totally new thing i thought was insane,,,,,Jesus....eh whats he to do with God?.who is Jesus?

Turns out he is GOD! well part of a trinity fyi!
Father x Son x Holy Spirit = GOD!
well now boyo! I couldn't believe it. I was blind! and it turns out i had two people who loved me now ! and get this that his love surrounds me through his spirit

Psalm 139

says where can i flee from his presence?, truth is NO WHERE!

love surrounded me all along!

So i learned of Romans ten then and confessed it and guess what!?

FELT LOVED!!!!

I ask you now just to watch this video and see if it relates to you okay =]

So if that made you feel loved ...well i have a question do you want to have that love forever with you?

if so say this with me,
God, I recognize that I have not lived my life for You up until now. I have been living for myself and that is wrong. I need You in my life; I want You in my life. I acknowledge the completed work of Your Son Jesus Christ in giving His life for me on the cross at Calvary, and I long to receive the forgiveness you have made freely available to me through this sacrifice. Come into my life now, Lord. Take up residence in my heart and be my king, my Lord, and my Savior. From this day forward, I will no longer be controlled by sin, or the desire to please myself, but I will follow You all the days of my life. Those days are in Your hands. I ask this in Jesus' precious and holy name. Amen.

Welcome Home My Brother or Sister,God has just thrown you a banquet!

God Bless:Peace:Love

Victoria Hoban

Its nice to be nice but how hard is it sometimes?

Earlier today I posted this to Facebook;

How many of us know its sometimes impossible to resist the urge to gossip and b***h on about people?

I'm only recently learning to calm my tongue, because I'm the kind of person (wether you know it or not) knows EVERYONES business or can find out with out a doubt.
I'm learning that its brought me a horrible name sometimes and that's not the person I want to portray.

I'm a nice person, well i think I am and I'm usually told I am.

Its hard to find the boundary between news and gossip yeah?!, I know and the urge is so heavy.
Up until recently I was horrible two faced passing on what is NONE of my business and being all "OMG, yer dress is gorgeous" then going to someone else "omg did you see the sate of her?"

I did it even to my close friends and well when they read this I'll prolly get questioned [ but maturity is owning up to mistakes and taking responsibilities for your actions] .
As my best bud Jesus said " the truth sets you free" and frankly I would rather stop trying to cover up with more lies and be free of it altogether.

You know the average person lies 20x a day? insane right? and they have to back those lies up with three others so the target person will believe!

Oh yeah I did that too.

I'm really shocked at myself, honestly!.In the past month I've grown so much!
I stopped drinking, cut down on swearing (hopefully I stop altogether I hate my foul mouth) etc
You know I secretly 'God Bless' someone if i have nothing nice to say? when i can feel it in my stomach! I swear I do it unconscioncly now!
Or I pray but mostly "god bless" lol
Id get odd stares if I prayed in tongues like, well I do actually, it slips out, its my good word vomit now.

You know the bible mentions gossip? hmm oh yeah God is not stupid!
So eh well lets say i wasn't on the God's path last night when I got FURIOUS at a friend of mine and mouthed off, Pretty bad tbh........Where was my "God bless" eh?
This is what me ould bible says about gossip!

Psalm 34:13
Keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking lies.

Psalm 101:5
Whoever slanders his neighbor in secret, him will I put to silence; whoever has haughty eyes and a
proud heart, him will I not endure.


1 Timothy 3:10-11
They must first be tested; and then if there is nothing against them, let them serve as deacons. In the same way, their wives[a] are to be women worthy of respect, not malicious talkers but temperate and trustworthy in everything.


James 3:5-6
The tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.

James 4:11
Brothers, do not slander one another. Anyone who speaks against his brother or judges him speaks against the law and judges it. When you judge the law, you are not keeping it, but sitting in judgment on it.

So you get my point......I hold my hands up! and they are black not red!
You know i wont mention names cause if i do I'm going to light a forest up on fire!
But guys I'm sorry and I am trying
I'll post more on my progress.

God Bless:Peace:Love

Your friend ( I hope after you've read this)

Victoria Annemarie Michelle Hoban

See how hard it is for me?.I know people who do it worse then me and i was pretty baaad and i was even worse before i became born again so i figured i'd bring it up.

Oh im in a writing mood so you might get another post out of me this week, my creative spirit has been let out so i usually flow with it!

God Bless:Love:Peace

Victoria